Well here we are at the beginning of another year. I wonder what this new year will bring. I don’t do resolutions, I gave those up a long time ago. But there are always things I am hopeful about at the beginning of a new year. There are the obvious things like good health, success, time with friends and family and happiness. There are other things I am hopeful for this year, I would LOVE to see my book published this year, I want to travel to Portland to see my family, I want to get my passport and make more memories with the people that I love.
The other thing the beginning of the new year represents for me is the beginning of another year without my heart, my Robby. I can’t believe he has been gone 2-1/2 years, it feels like forever and it feels like 5 minutes ago. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t miss my son, Robby. Now for the closest thing to a resolution I will make, this year I hope to find and understand my ‘new normal’. I know life will never be the same without Robby, so I have to make a new life, a new normal. That doesn’t mean leaving the past behind me, I carry my memories with me like precious cargo. It just means I need to figure out what my life will be going forward.
So I think I am ready to see what this year will bring…….hopefully ready.
