Book Update

Well as I have posted about before, I am writing a book to tell my story about living with agoraphobia and the process of finding a way out.   So right now I have been working a lot on the book.  My cancer recurrence last year has motivated me to get it finish, I would hate to see it left unfinished.  It’s funny, in the beginning I wasn’t sure I wanted  to write a book.  But the more I wrote the more it came to life and the more I want to see it in print.  I have most chapters written and am editing them now.  The rest of the chapters are outlined and ready to be written.  The book was originally going to end with my first cancer, but at the suggestion of someone I trust that has changed.  The book now will end with the death of my son, Robby.  I am not looking forward to writing that chapter.

As part of the process of writing the book I have contacted people who are in the book or their likeness is in the book.  It’s been interesting to me, some are very supportive of this project.  But others don’t seem to believe that I am really writing a book.  Well I guess they will be surprised when the book is published and released.

There have been obstacles along the way, the most recent one was keyboard failure.  I like to go places and write, my favorite spot is the Chipotle at Seacliff Village in Huntington Beach.  I linked my tablet to the cloud making my project portable.  But two days ago my keyboard went goofy, it was adding letters and spaces all on it’s own.  So after a quick visit to Amazon I have a new wireless keyboard with a channel to stand my tablet.  I am back at mobile status again.

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It’s Begining to Look a Lot Like……The Holidays…..Again

I can’t figure out where the year has gone!  So much has happened in 2018, both good and bad.  Some things are carrying over into the new year, also good and bad.  I decided that the last two years I felt obligated to do Christmas.  In 2016 I put up the tree because I knew it would be my last Christmas in the house.  And last year I put up the tree because it was the first Christmas in my new house.  This year I wanted Christmas to feel like a choice.  So I have put a tree and I have tried to ‘do’ Christmas.  The holidays are really tough since Robby is gone and I know they will never be the same.  So this year I am starting my search for the new normal for holidays.  There’s got to be a way that’s at least a little less painful.

I did some things I hadn’t done for a while, like sewing and painting.  I had forgotten how much I enjoyed making things.  I made a couple of aprons like my Great Grandma Clare wore.  She has been on my mind a lot this Christmas.  I spent a lot of time with her growing up and she taught me so many things like cooking, baking, how to wear and apron and about the power of positive thinking.  I find myself missing my family this year and the realization that my family traditions end with me has left me sad.

But now with Christmas behind me, I am looking forward to New Years and the possibilities that a new year can bring.