I remember, as do most people, how simple life seems when you are a child. Days were filled fun, fun and more fun-all carefree and simple. As you become an adult life is less than simple, there is all the adult responsibilities-bills, work, rent, insurance and so much more. I don’t mean to make sound like there isn’t ‘fun’ as an adult, but that simple life is missing.
When I was stuck at home with my agoraphobia I created a ‘life’ within my house. I found ways to take care of what we needed and made sure we celebrated everything-birthdays, holidays, special days and even the seasons. It was at times difficult, but even so I became comfortable within that ‘life’ I created.
Now I find that my life is increasingly complicated, stressful, demanding and exhausting. If I am not off to a doctor’s appointment or physical therapy, I am paying bills, running errands, making more appointments, trying to keep the house going and …….. There are days I am not sure I can do any of it and some days I get some or even most of it done. I often feel a desire to hide, but at my house that is impossible. What I do find all to often is a wish to return to the simple life I had when my agoraphobia was worse, it wasn’t quite as simple as a child’s life, but it was much more simple than my life today. Who knew I’d ever want to go back?